You never knew

"The shattering of a heart when broken is the loudest quiet ever."
- Carroll Bryant

When you look at someone as this wonderful person, you've got nothing negative to say about them. You've never thought of anything, ever.

Out of the blue, they're telling you all these things about yourself that you've never heard before. Bad things, things that you did not know.

You sit there just absolutely speechless. You don't know what to say or how to respond.

All these things that you've done and all the things that you thought were enough actually weren't enough at all. Whatever you were doing was not good enough. You did not show enough and you did not give enough or do enough.

There were things instinctively you shoul've done and you should've known to do, you just didn't know.

You don't get a second chance, sorry. You don't get one because you don't deserve one.

It's hard to understand what's going on because you thought that the only thing you've done really well in your life was this person.

Turns out, you had failed.
Then you get to the how fast they find someone to replace you.
A person that he/she has only known for a few days.
You think to yourself, how could he/she
?

You don't understand it but you have to face it either way.

* This is my blog so I am allowed to convey my emotions however I want. This was not written by me but spoken by Wayne Goss, a make up artist on youtube regarding the leaving of his best friend. It seemed to fit me so I decided to type it out. I'm sorry if this was too emotional for your liking but you know what? I don't live to impress.

With the warmth of my heart,
Ainna.

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